Wednesday, December 9, 2009


i miss my violin.




like seriously.




why though?




d last time i picked him up was during MAY.














great.

i have an undang test to study for and i want my violin.




我还记得我们的约定,一辈子幸福的约定~

我也爱你~
sarah magdalene.

Monday, December 7, 2009

i cant take this

pls dont read if you have nvr heard me mention d secret code "panda".

i really cant take this.
how can he do this to me?!
remember wht i said abt him not talking to me for one whole yr becuz o "buzy w studies"?
i added him on my msn list again last week, cuz i thought,
juz catching a mention o how he was doing is enough for me.
he msn-ed me juz now, as well as answering an email i sent him a mth ago.

now im shaking w anger.
how can he act as if nothing has happened between us?
ok, maybe nothing has happened. we didnt fight or anything.
but we havent been talking for almost a year!
and he acts as if d last time we talked was last week.

i dont know why im so angry...
he probably doesnt know tht im mad at him...
but i juz cant stand it.

it was as if all d mths o being angry at myself (& at him),
getting upset cuz he didnt reply to my smses,
telling myself tht he's super buzy, when he doesnt do d things he usually does w me (ie chat, read blog etc),
didnt happen.

as if he didnt cause me to feel sad everytime i think abt him this yr.

feeling so APOLOGIZE now. (think justin timberlake)














but wht i dont understand is, why i can accept jerk's apology...
jerk didnt EVER replied to my smses and letters...

was it only cuz jerk didnt act as if he didnt do all tht?
or becuz he apologized?










or becuz im juz a person w double standards?





















i missed panda.
lots.











but suddenly i wished he didnt come back to my life.



















i dont know him anymore.

Monday, November 16, 2009

trip to rome

graduated and killing time before i go off for holiday in an exotic place non other than...
ROME.
yo ITALY~~
hehe.

so here i am, trying not to "waste my online time" (as my dad calls facebook and blogs) by doing some research on rome.
cuz if i dont, my dad'll probably get us lost...
no sense to ask for directions and all=p

ok, let's look at d top list o "must see"s:
  1. the Roman Colosseum-- gladiators and wild beasts! at least in d old days. seats 50,000. one o d world's NEW 7 wonders.
  2. Palatine and the Roman Forum-- remember SEJARAH form4, ppl? this is d place where DEMOCRACY was born!
  3. Vatican and the Sistine Chapel-- vatican->pope->smallest country in d world->centre o catholic church. hmm ya, and d sistine chapel contains Michaelangelo's work, only one o which is signed by him. (check out d story by following d last link listed bellow)
  4. Trevi Fountain-- besides being an architectual marvel, it is also, in short, a WISHING WELL. haha. same "throw coin in granted return visit" story. then again, dad says that a fountain cannot differentiate between an euro coin and a m'sian coin so could we pls bring some 20 sen coins to throw.
  5. the Catacombs-- used by d early christians in d days o prosecution by romans... they are close to 2000 YRS old. seriously cool.
besides this top5, there's also attractions like
the Pantheon, Park of the Monsters, Baths of Caracalla, Vatican Museums, Museum of Sanitary Arts (this is positively weird), Aqua store (yes it sells ntg but water), poste vaticane (vatican post office) etc.

recommended websites: strange (but true, i hope), serious, interesting, only if you'r into ancient churches.
follow d links if you like a description.

then there's also d FOOD.
*going wide-eyed and starts to drip over d keyboard*
my aunt specifically asked us to try italian ICE-CREAM.
not pasta, it's d ice-creams tht's worth d plane tickets.
according to her, it comes in a few stacked scoops and tastes like heaven.
probably costs like hell though><.
haha~

k gtg for now.
will update w real photos when i get back.
hope i wont get too fat.

ciao~~

NS

stup stup stup khidmat negara...
of all times to send me a letter...
it has to come a few days before i leave d country,
and at a time when its official site crashed.
urgh.

anyone else got a letter?

still debating whether or not to extend it... again.
on one hand, it'd b quite a cool experience.
on d other hand, wht if coincided w my studies? would i b able to extend it then?
again, let me ponder d stupidity o having d official "khidmet negara" site crashed...
and a "for further enquiries, pls call" number THT IS FOREVER BUSY!!!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

FINISHED EXAMS

I'VE FINISHED MY SUEC

wow.

im still in a state o shock actually.

am i really and truly done w it?

still feel d urge to pick up my txtbks to revise.




but still...

d hours spent walking arnd sg wang

and d hours spent surfing d net

and d hours going to be spent doing cross-stitch...


feels real enough.

guess im really done w UEC.





HOORAY!!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

sayonara for nw

only one post for october?!?
wow... im really behind schedule.
but then again, im nt supposed to be online now anyway.
i've gt my finals in exactly 2 weeks!!
and it's d biggest exam in all o my 18 yrs, no less.
heh.

going back to d hostel in another 2 more hrs after my tuition...
to STUDY!!

no more procrastinating.

gd luck to all having their exams,
elizabeth soo, anak2 indos in my sch, PMR (this week),
all my jrs in sch, JUEC (in 2 weeks),
all sr3's i knw, SUEC (ditto),
jeffrey lim (cousin) and mye and gang, SPM (a mth away),
wern and other college a-lvls ppl (nov).

pls offer prayers for all students taking exams soon!

ps wishes to 'hav a nice trip' to those going for cousin william's 'zhu ce' in singapore nxt week!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

middle o afternoon

pract piano

record clip

do chores

pract piano

record clip

do chores

convert clip

bang on comp

edit clip

lose audio

comp hang

mp3 hang

CAMERA pun boleh hang






WHT THE?!?!?!









*frustrated-ing*

Thursday, September 24, 2009

choir

oh and one more thng.
mic asked me to join her church's youth choir for christmas eve mass!!
COOL!!

though i guess tht means i wont b able to make it back to kajang for d midnight mass and go out for supper w d gang... AGAIN.
urgh. when am i gnna b old enough to hav resources to keep up w my enthusiasm? (ie being able to driv when noone wants to drive me, or d ability to divide myself?)
i miss d xmas mass w d family.
been w d SIC choir for d past few yrs...

nt tht i dislike playin in d choir.
playin in church, FOR church, is great fun!
ntg beats d feeling o contributing to d hymms.
esp my GLORIA!! hehe~ but tht's another story.

hope to b allowed to join mic for d xmas eve thng.
been away fr d choir too long.
stup exam...
and stup nt-being-able-to-driv-ness.

wedding

hangin arnd on facebk waitin and waitin for
1. smeone to upload d photos o d outing to sunway pyramid yesterday, and
2. d liking to "play" facebk to arrive fr d sky.
but nope, noone uploaded d pics (i thnk it's a lil early><) and nope, i still cant find anythng really interestin abt facebk. well since i've gt no pics to post, thought i'd share sme bible verses while waiting.

Tobit 8:4-9
When the girl's parents left the bedroom and closed the door behind them, Tobiah arose from bed and said to his wife, "My love, get up. Let us pray and beg our Lord to have mercy on us and to grant us deliverance." [5] She got up, and they started to pray and beg that deliverance might be theirs. He began with these words:

"Blessed are you, O God of our fathers;
praised be your name forever and ever.
Let the heavens and all your creation praise you forever.
[6] You made Adam and you gave him his wife Eve to be his help and support;
and from these two the human race descended.
You said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone;
let us make him a partner like himself.'
[7] Now, Lord, you know that I take this wife of mine
not because of lust, but for a noble purpose.
Call down your mercy on me and on her,
and allow us to live together to a happy old age."

[8] They said together, "Amen, amen," [9] and went to bed for the night.

sweet, huh? d bible surprises me smetimes, when i suddenly cme across smethng tht's uncommonly sweet and un-commonsense-ish. =)

it's fr d bk o Tobit.
haha~ i havent heard o it either.
it's in d apo-smethng bks (ie d small bks tht arent usually in d bible).
found it only becuz i was lookin for it, which is becuz.....

MY COUSIN'S GETTIN MARRIED!
here cmes d bride~~~~>
hehe~~
im so excited!!

cuz it means tht i gt to dress up and go for wedding (in church, no less), wedding dinner (hopefully wedding reception too=p),
and also i gt xtra angpau nxt yr.
LOLZ~

though d part i love most abt marriage is sorta like this verse (Ephesians 5:21-33):
  • Wives, [be in subjection] unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.
  • Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself up for it
  • For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife; and the two shall become one flesh.
sweet~~

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

tang yuan ji

i'd really really wanted to eat tang yuans tht day (abt 1.5 mths ago actually=p)
so I MADE MY OWN!!
hehe~~
im a lil short o time so lets juz let d pics show you...





yay~~ done.

ok, so mayb it wasnt tht delicious.
but i made it.

so there.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

prom shopping

went shopping w my aunts and cousin sis yesterday...
my legs really hurt...
guess im nt fit for 7 hrs o non-stop shoppingXD

but luckily...
I BOUGHT MY PROM DRESSES^^!!
yep, 2 o them. haha~
it's really thx to my aunts...
i liked 2 dresses, a strapless red one, and a purple peacock,
and couldnt decide betw them,
so they said, just buy both.
O.O?!??
i only planned on buyin one... seeing tht my aunt promised to sponsor me and nt my dad.
if it were my dad payin then i mightn hesitate to buy both... LOL!
juz jk... im juz nt tht extravagant regardless o who's paying.
but then... aunts said they'd halv d bill betw them as a gift to me, so...
THX TO AUNTS MARIA AND ANNIE!
and thx to liyen for bringin us there=)


tht was at a boutique near bangsar... called poppi, i thnk.
then we went MV.
oh me gosh... MIDVALLEY!!
it's like d biggest shoppin mall..........
still... we spent, like 4 hrs lookin for a pair o shoes=.=...
dudu, yying, proves tht it's nt our prob tht we couldn find shoes d last time we came... it's juz hard to find shoes to fit me. hehe~
nt tht ive gt extra big shoes or anythng!!
more like, noone makes shoes tht:
1. has heels <3inches
2. black
3. has size 7/8

at d end o 5 hrs in MV...
in which we had thai food tht cost abt RM80 betw d 4 o us...
i gt myself a pair o 3-inch high heels...
gt my bro a pair o jeans and a nice shirt...
and gt my sis sme delifrance pastriesXD.

oh and abt bro's jeans and shirt...
they made me try them on for my bro=.="...
cuz bro only 1/2 size bigger than me wor...
urgh.
d jeans was d funniest.
i tried size 29... GUYS JEANS... and i could juz abt gt into them.
WHAT?!?!!
im usually a 27/28...
oh well... in d end gt him size... 30, i think.
wht's d worst tht cn happen? if he couldnt fit at least i knw i can=p~

i didnt gt d purse and 18th b'day prezzie i promised myself (as a treat),
but crossin off 2 out o 3 in a shoppin list is no small feat.
lol~ sme o you ppl knw hw i am when shoppin...
well, my thx again to my aunts and liyen... for their patience, $$, and time...
and endurance in walkin arnd for HOURS.
though on d bright side... we muz hav lost at least 0.5 kg yesterday^^.

thnk tht's all.
will post pics o my prom dresses (one o which is for my cousin's wedding la)... some day.
TTFN~

Saturday, August 22, 2009

bored

ya ya, i knw, d pic abov is nt really in tune w my topic...
but my dear cousin wouldnt giv me d pic i wanted...
so i had to make do w wht i hav la. will change it when ive found a more suitable pic.

it's d first day o hols^^!
at hme doin ntg... bloggin=ntg...
nt allowed to go to chien's farewell partyT.T...
was goin to go joggin at tmn tun this morn w yiaqing, but then mum went out at 5am for a retreat at PD, and dad...... isnt awake yetO.O

well... let's see if there's anythng interestin to blog abt...
*thinkin...*


*still thinkin....*


*an hr + a breakfast later*
conclusion: gnna end this ridiculously empty post and start a new one=p

Friday, August 21, 2009

fr sch

bloggin fr sch...
dunno wht to write...
goin crazy tryin to finish everythng by deadline...
doubtin my writin skills...

well... imp news is...
it's d hols tmr!
GOING HOME TODAY!
tht's like d highlight o my day^^
missed my home so much, for sme unknwn reason...

more when i gt hme la...
cheers~~

Monday, August 17, 2009

yying bday

ok ppl
listen.
to those ppl who hav recieved my calls or smses to prep for yying's b'day "surprise"

gt 1/8 piece o paper
on the front, write your b'day wishes
on the back, write d most touching thing she has said to you + your reply
(eg she said, gd luck! your reply: thx, luv ya~)
i want it by friday, 21/8.

gt it?
ask her if you hav any questions.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

hope they'r effectiv~

hey ppl~

i was hangin arnd gtting ntg done on d comp and remembered smethng i should've done a long time ago...
check this out!

HOW TO STAY AWAKE DURING CLASS
http://www.dumblittleman.com/2008/01/how-to-stay-awake-at-work-or-school.html
http://www.wikihow.com/Stay-Awake-at-Work
lol~

d last effectiv way was being sprayed w yying's diamond water spray...
since it went missing i've been havin a hard time keepin my eyes open durin lessons...
esp bio and math, if you gt wht i mean.

anyways d links did offer sme other solutions, so off i go to root them out.
1.5 mths till trials!!
muz nt do anymore napping in class><

disneyland

disneyland hongkong...
a truly magical experience!

went there last march actually...
but juz saw this pic we took on my dad's bkshelf... and thought i'd post it.
haha~ we went to this pooh place twice...
kept an eye out for d camera d 2nd time and everyone looked so nice for once (smile in correct general direction) tht d muddys agreed to buy it.
cost quite a bit but it's worth it^^

Saturday, July 4, 2009

ps

one more thing.
i need a B in SPM art as part o d entry requirements for d degree prog.
huh.

i didnt even take art.

IU

went to my sch's IU day today, and, well, it wasnt a very gd use o my time.
but i knw d interacters worked hard on it so no complaints=)
and not to say i had a miserable time...
i did like d 24 drums and chi dance and diabolo... and i enjoyed watchin tammy doin (doing? playing? performing?) the wushu=p.
hehe~

i remember last yr's IUd...
jiaxin practically dragged me there.
i wanted to go home, i had no interest whtsoever in IU, and i did nt hav d cash to spare.

this yr...
i didnt think twice abt sacrificin my at-hme time, $ (gdness knws i hav lil enough to spare), nor did i suddenly develope an interest in IU.
duh~ o course nt.
but i still went, even w/o anyone invitin me.

mayb it was becuz i wanted to accumulate my memories o high sch activities?
but then i could hav juz spent 8 bucks more and went to d KC band concert... which i would actually like.

guess i could fool noone.
i juz wanted to be reminded o my friends...
jiaxin, wern and my "zhu ren"...
and partly cuz i hoped tht my presence could add to d few ppl who turned up to make d event a success.

well anyway cant write too much cuz im workin on yying's bday prezzie...
which took me lots o energy and thought.
so she better appreciate it.
HEAR THT?

and stop askin me wht it is.
im nt gnna answer anymore questions fr anyone.
so there.

oh and btw...
went to d library and found out abt d fees for my degree...
my gosh!
it's in so many 0's tht i didnt want to cont studyin at all... for a moment.
haha~
guess it's d normal amount, though.
RM72,000 for 3 yrs in taylors uc (subang),
approx RM105,000 x2=RM210,000 for 2 yrs in UK.
total=RM282,000.

wow.

signin off, cheers~

Saturday, June 27, 2009

apparently back to twinning

yep.
im back to twinnin...
right where i started.

remember when i used to dislike d idea so much?
im ok w it nw.
haha~ but then again it's nt a huge achievement cuz i used to dislike d idea o germany too.
see hw much ive grown on d idea nw?

anyway...
im back w twinning,
probably doin taylor's + university o strach****, scotland (couldnt spell, pronounce or rem d name><)
it's nt london (my dream o 17 yrs), but it's further studies away fr m'sia.
gd enough.

d subject in question is architecture...
which, though i rejected d idea when first proposed, has really grown on me.
i was actually lookin foward to graduatin so tht i cn gt on w studyin it!
lol~
but i still hav doubts...

it's tough,
no questions abt it.
like, as tough as it cn be.
my version o wht chien is doin=p

takes 6 yrs to complete and even then i cant call myself an architect.
oh and btw d drop-out rate is more or less 75%,
esp in d first 2 /3 yrs...
like they say, if you cn last 3 yrs, you might juz last for a lifetime.
but cn i?

again let me remind y'all tht my art is HORRIBLE,
aka i cant draw to save my life.

so why am i doin this?
haha~
will explain in detail when i cme back.
mom's takin me to buy ingredients for scones...
hehe~ food~~~~

Saturday, June 13, 2009

cheerio~

just came back fr camp and thought i'd drop by...

wern yi told me to delete her name fr d list.
haha~ she said tht she does NT want to be listed as a "missed friend".
fine~
publishin a revised edition=)

1. joey (sent email, gt reply, gnna write another)
2. weimun (will talk to nxt time i see her online)
3. xinyin (met at 2sca gatherin!! as always, didnt change much=p)
4. wernyi (met at 2sca gatherin too! happy birthday in advance, wern~)
5. cheryl (ditto! lookin forward to seein her at kasturi thngy tmr)
6. crystal (still no response... hmm... mayb busy? gnna try again^^)
7. rojak (apparently busy w sch... mayb i shouldnt kacau him?)
8. miao (will look her up back in sch, phone credit's sufferin)
9. my nanny (thnk i'll write to her la... talkin thru sms takes too much effort><)

to do:
1. reply to joe's email
2. reply to yingying's email
3. write to nanny
4. write my chi sch mag articlesO.O!!
5. write my eng sch mag articles><... 6. write camp report 7. study 8. call aunt eva in taiwan 9. gt details for taiwan trip ASAP 10. wash sch shoes 11. wish for camera to gt pics for my blog 12. wish for laptop so tht i cn cont typin in the RAIN!!

stup thunderstormT.T...
signin off for nw~~

oh ya one more thng... let's look at sme pics fr my 2sca gatherin...
luv ya girls~

Saturday, May 30, 2009

friends

keepin in touch is nt tht hard... is it?
hw bout we take a poll... those tht ive nt talked to in more than a mth, put up your hands!

1. joey
2. weimun
3. xinyin
4. wernyi
5. cheryl
6. crystal
7. rojak
8. miao
9. my nanny
.....
and d list goes on.


friendship has to b maintained, but it always feels hard to pick up d pen or phone.
time and $ are priceless...

but so are my friends.

juz sent emails (typed ones, nt fowarded msges) to joe, jot and wade.
and preparin to type more.

lookin up one friend a day/week shouldnt b tht hard.

miss you guys~

Sunday, May 24, 2009

results o d speech com


there. d results o my speech com.
thx again to d ppl who supported me^^~

sick

oh ya...
lets all pray for d recovery o these two sick cats... XDtammyyoosun

and also my classmates who re on d brink o sickness... DRINK LOTS O H2O AND DONT SPREAD D VIRUS!!

it's d middle o d nite

im so sleepy... but still researchin german studies...
my dad suggested tht i actually go there to learn d languge.
hmm... gd idea.
but im so afraid tht i wont survive there. new place, you knw?

so anyway gnna type my blog later but juz upload sme pics for general appreciationXP.

these re taken durin last yr's zhong qiu wan hui, organised by us sr2's.
this is jiaxin and i.

ngsiao wern, shu en, jia yin, xin wei, jiaxin, me, yi wen
(top) jiaxin, qing, wan shing
(bottom) shu en, yiwen, cheryl, me, xin wei
these re taken durin our outin to celebrate my 17th b'day as well as d end o d exams.
d puzzle s my present fr yying and jiaxin, d purse yying's fr me.
yying and i... amazingly both hav cut their hair this yr=p

gnna go do more research. nitez, y'all~

Saturday, May 16, 2009

lousy week



nvr would hav made it w/o you guys.
2sca, thx~

Sunday, May 3, 2009

yying's bday present

ok... this s really smethng yoongying forced me to write...
to all o you who doesnt knw, her b'day is on d 6th o sept and she wants to knw wht her present is NOW.
isnt tht too much to ask for?? therefore im givin her a hint every mth till then...

hint 1: smethng tht cn move. both boys and girls cn use it, but dont necessarily need it.
hint 2: see below. these are taken when we went out to celebrate yying's bday last yr.

and these are taken at my sweet 16th party...
these are all included in d 2nd hint... haha~ dont tell d person below if you've figured it out!


ps miss my long hair... anythng's better than this haircut!! (sry camera's outta batt)

Saturday, May 2, 2009

to sr2sca08'

referin to my last post in our class blog...
i couldnt make it.

nt to say i didnt try.
i did, and i cn tell you truthfully tht i worked really hard.
but even if i improved lots, i still couldnt play.
sr3's arent allowed to play in d interzone, and coach wouldnt even consider me for d ba du zhong.

looks like my vlb life ended last interzone, when they were desperate enough to let me play.

nvr again would i hav d chance to prove my worth in d court.
nvr again would i represent my sch in vlb.

but no regrets.
i made all my decisions believin they were d best for me,
and im glad tht i made d decision to improv this yr.

i did.

new haircut

i cn tell you,
this is d worst i've ever had.
serious.
it's even worse than d long hair turned short one.

let me try to describe d hideous creation.
it's short, way shorter than (my) normal stds.
it doesnt compliment my face at all. (it actually makes my face look rounder, if tht's possible)
*for those who knws tammy, it kinda looks like tht... only it looks much better on her than on me.

i'd post a photo as soon as my bro finds d camera.
you ppl seriously need a warnin before you see me.
cuz even my family went, Oh. My. Gosh. WHT DID D LADY DO TO YOUR HAIR.
and my father and bro Would Not stop laughin at it.



OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, May 1, 2009

finals o speech com

d final round o d speech com... is finally over!
no more worryin abt unfinished HW while practicin^^!

wern was right.
it WAS an experience o a lifetime.
writin (and editin) my speech, memorisin and learnin to improvise on it, and finally presentin it...
i had so much fun!

im glad tht i chose to write my speech.
if i had taken it fr a bk or fr d net, it wouldnt b MY SPEECH.
i would just b memorisin lines.
"Givin up or lettin go?" is wholly mine...
well, d main idea was.
wern gave me a lot o suggestions tht i just had to put in.

thx lots to suetmun, phue sin, le yun, yoo sun, tammy and my roommates
for listenin to my naggins. (wht if i...? wht if i...? ahh, it's nxt week!! etc)

also thx to aaron, yeosin, nasha, suet yen, hansol, ming wai and my vlb jrs
who gav me d encouragemnt to walk up d stage.
walkin up d stage and talkin to 1800 ppl takes quite a lot o nerve.

but d greatest thx goes to wern yi...
who nvr stopped believin in me.
right fr d start she told me to reach for d stars (or in my case, just d moon), and to hav fun.
who also burnt d midnite oil to read thru my script to pt out my flaws.
hugs and kisses to you, wern!

succintly...
my first time singin solo in public and my first speech on stage...
was a success!
in my eyes, of course.
i did nt regret any part o it.
even d part where i was constantly teased abt singin d nursery rhyme.
or d part where d whole sch heard my voice shake.

no regrets at all.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

nt giving up yet

d organist o my choir juz emailed me.
she asked if im still available to play for church.






am i?
lately i had to force myself to remember tht i cant hav everythng in life,
tht ive gtta learn作出生命中的取舍.

yying is right, if it's too hard then do smethng tht is easier.
if i dont hav d ability then i shouldnt take on too much.





yeah, mayb.
but i still cant giv up anythng.

but stop lookin at me w d superior expression when i dont succeed in managing my time.
i CAN do it, juz wait and see.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

easter

havent had time to blog for sme time so decided to borrow 1 hr (fr d mountain o hw) to finish d delayed blogs.

outin w girls... done
speech com... done
exam results... it's a sunday! nt gnna write bout it
my week... besides it bein hectic (my day started at 6am and ended at 11pm, w 10 min break for my shower and no time at all for hw), it's ntg. was busy organisin d hostel "ti neng xun lian ying".
sr3 stuff... too lazy to

so it leaves me w...
EASTER!!!
i really, really love easter...
remember when we were in d jr sect, teachers always like to use "my fav holiday" as an essay topic?
ppl write abt CNY or b'days or d mid-autmn festival,
but my absolute favs re easter and christmas^^!
(cant decide betw them cuz easter is great but nt everyone o my relatives cn make it back to celebrate w us, unlike christmas)

went to d easter virgil mass last night,
6.45 till 8.15pm!!
yep, d usual 2.5 hr thng.
it was a lil diff for me this yr, cuz for d 1st time in 3 yrs im nt doin anythng except participatin in mass.
in 07 i was in charge o d projector (projects prayers and lyrics for d whole church),
last yr i was playin piano accompaniment (and freezin my XXX off right under d AC),
this yr... i was juz a normal parishioner.

but even though i wasnt in charge o anythng,
easter's still a special thng for me.
it's juz really upliftin and i cme away serene and confident...

every yr i gt a new experience at this mass,
once i understood d meanin o easter,
once i understood baptism,
once i understood d phrase "praising d Lord w music",
and last yr i made a new friend.

remember totoro?
i met him at d easter mass.
our first link was d freezin temp in church...
haha~ ntg gts two talkin like chattering teeth and numb hands!

goin to my grandma's soon,
food, chat, more food, family...
tht's one o d "plus" o easter!

gtg nw, to all my friends in Christ,
Happy Easter!
may God bless you and d spirit o Easter be with you always~
fr Magda (Magdalene- my confirmation name! in church my name'll nw b sarah magdalene chong=p)

speech com

impossible to believ, but there i was takin part in d english elocution competition for d sr category.
and even more impossible to believ, i gt into d finals w a topic o "using icebergs as a source o water"O.O...
i mean, i dont even Like tht topic...
i juz didnt hav time to look for one... so i took d one my teacher offered me.

so this week, which is d most hectic week ive ever had, i managed to split myself into 3 on thurs and went for d speech com (it collided w d hostel photographin sess as well as vlb pract).
it was quite an experience!

i was late so i didnt hav time to really PANIC, but d "adrenaline to stimulate pumpin o heart to prov brain w O2" thng happened...
my 4 min speech took me more or less 2.75 min to finish.
haha~ i was nervous!

then i listened to d others,
couldnt stand one o d sr1 girls! (i knw im lousy, but...)
no posture no ethic at all!! who makes a speech slouchin and readin fr a piece o paper!

so anyway...
everyone did ok, and i silently resolved to work on my accent...
i dont hav one! T.T...

congrats to hansol for gettin 1st in d preliminary round,
and also my sympathies to tammy...

tammy, you did very well!
serious~ your pronunciation was really wonderful!
you sounded like a french speakin eng... haha~ lovely foreign accent, i LOVED it!
dont berate yourself for forgettin your lines, everyone does.
nxt time, dont b so serious over it and hav fun, k?
juz like we had fun in our interclass games^^.

after exam gala

i did mention tht i was goin out w d girls, right?
well here are d pics i 'curi' fr dudu's blog...
d stars o d day.... wawa, dudu, and yoongying!! and me...... i guess.
it was fun...
so this is wht they always do when they go out...i knw i dont sing... juz hang on to d mike... but hey, listenin is an art!
d beautiful and talented singers... wawa, yying, dudu~
takin pic w Fahrenheit... haha~ yying (d wu zhun fanatic) is standin nxt to her idol^^
before leavin d k room...
then we had food and went shoppin (my mom's orders)... i gt new shoes! heels 3 inches highO.O
d highlights o a high sch girl... prom!! which isnt until... erm.. november??
haha~ sry tht i cant hav fun fittin d dresses w you tht day cuz o sme reason><
can anyone believ tht i wasnt happy tht day? nt possible, right?

Saturday, April 4, 2009

saturday mornin

im havin a dreadful time...
looking for advertisements for my yrbook.
ANYONE INTERESTED?!?!?!

i've been callin ppl for d past hr and i've nt gt past stating my intentions.
sigh~ hw do ppl do it?

goin crazy soonT.T

Friday, April 3, 2009

waiting

再次锁掉我的panda部落格...
真的很失望,难过得直想掉泪...

"石沉大海没关系,毫无音讯没关系,
对谁都一样,我不介意。"
我真的说了这样的话?
(innocent-vlb-nerd的blog)

好,说的一定算数,
但代价是自己累...

有多少心在冷 有多少泪在忍
有多少梦已幻灭再从头
不愿放弃爱的心 没有别的路可走
只有不认输的人 没有别的梦可以选择
经历太多泪的夜 没有别的爱可守
失落和希望 一起等候
(不肯放弃爱的心,姜育恒)

我怕失望,但我还是会等。

继续等,继续期待,继续爱...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

home on weekday^^

this is to all d ppl i luv...
你好吗
李玖哲/周笔畅

温柔的时间,抚平我们的亏欠
过几天,过几年,伤会好一点。
多久没见面,孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前,笑的那么甜。

chorus
baby,我想起你,你有了他
是否依然为了爱,变的很傻
我想起你,你有一个他
好久都,没说的话,你好吗?

温柔的缠绵,我也放下了依恋
过几天,过几年,伤会好一点。
我收着照片,安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下,唯一的关联

chorus

问候是我对你,好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗?

我想起你,你有了他,
是否依然为了爱,变的很傻
我想起你,你有一个他
好久都没说的话,你好吗?
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missin d days o sweet 16th,
friends, class, volleyball, music, etc...
it's nt like i dont hav them nw, it juz feels diff.

juz finished my exams and seriously,
they SUCK!!!
it was a total disaster.
confirmed as d WORST exam EVER...
and tht includes my basketball exams.
so you can imagine hw bad it was.

anyway im goin out w yying and d girls tmr...
so gtta sleep early (lol as if=p).

blog again smetime soon, im hme for a long weekend^^~~
cant help feelin happy cuz o qing ming... im bad i knw><

Saturday, March 21, 2009

it's "follow cousin to work day"!

sry this isnt d holiday post i promised, but d pics re still in d camera and im nt really in d mood to blog abt hw we spent 3 days juz eatin and sleepin.

today... my cousin took me arnd her workin area and told me all abt construction jobs.
believ it or nt, i wasnt put off but was even more facinated than before!

to begin d story... you all knw tht KC has been a construction site for d past 5 yrs, right?
and last yr, 2sca's classroom was right beside d latest site, d science block.
watchin d buildin grow every day was a new experience and it was then tht i found an interest in construction.

but 99.99% o d ppl i knw, includin my dad and friends, advised me against goin into construction.
reason: it's a guy's world.
right.

still... i believ tht all i want to do is construction.

today, after goin over almost everythng tht's involved in buildin a... building,
ive narrowed it dwn to architecture and structural engineering.

ok, lets look at both (based on my summary o today).
architecture requires a fair bit o imagination, a certain level o drawin skills, a lot o determination (while studyin), and ability to withstand large amount o stress.

structural engineers hafta b gd at calculatin (ie PHYS O.O), gd at logical thinkin, and knwledge o buildin materials.

and look at these ref i gt fr a site:
for civil engineerin- talent for organisation and analytical thinking who are interested in mathematics, natural science and technology, having a poor spatial sense constitutes an obstacle.

for architecture- able to work independently and creatively, students continually fail because they are not creative enough. good spatial awareness, main difficulty involved in the study of architecture is the amount of work that needs to be done.


then look at this link (architecture): http://community.livejournal.com/architecture/285693.html
and this: http://www.studyoverseas.com/uk/uked/archit.htm



my conclusion,
i like architectue drawings,
but i like SE's work.
so...?
gnna sleep on it.


nitez~

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

my day

went and gt my hair cut today.
then went for japanese buffet at a place called jogoya, star hill.

first, my mom told me tht it's a "high-class" place,
so i gt ready to wear a skirt and high heels.
then my dad said it's ok to wear jeans and sport shoes,
but i ended up in jeans and high heels.
turns out... ppl were wearin shorts (d very short kind girls w long legs like to wear)=.=...

d food wasnt too bad la...
gt a whole lot o stuff to choose fr!
it's like d sch canteen multiplied by 3 maybe...
and there's hagen daaz ice-cream, puddin, 8 diff types o fruit juices to choose for dessert...

i had raw fish! d stuff my mom calls... erm... sashimi??
my sis was d worse... she ate everythng we gav her, and tht includes oysters, jellyfish, 1/4 boiled egg, lobster...

went there w my neighbours, a total o 3 moms, 3 teens (2 o my bro's age) and 7 kids.
SEVEN!! looked like a kindergarten outin on d escalator...

well... nt very excitin... but i gt food so im nt complainin=p
sigh~ when cn i gt a camera?? (or a phone w camera)
gt addicted to photographin every outin...

oh btw... i finally went to gt my "liu hai" (fringe) cut...
ppl hav been naggin at me for weeks cuz my hair (+hair clip) was against d sch rules...
it looks........... flat.
metaphorically.
or mayb tht's becuz i still miss my long hair... haha~ i knw it's been 3 mths...

currently up to my ears researchin scholarships...
i knw tht my results re nt d best, but dad says tht if i could hav a chance to ease his financial burden then why nt try...
so let me knw if anyone has info...

k tht's bout it... promise to hav sme pics for my nxt post...
goin to kuantan w family tmr!
i'd b even darker then...
lol~ wont b arnd till fri (and im nt bringin my phone) so dont miss me=p~

Monday, March 16, 2009

random

oh ya... was juz scrollin dwn my blog to see if i left sme promise unfulfilled,
and i saw my wish list...

cecelia ahern's bks
can you keep a secret? (by sophie kinsella)
a watch

and guess wht??


i've gt them!!!
bought cecelia's "a place called here" and "where rainbows end" and "can you keep a secret?" at d mph bks sales
and my dad juz took me out to buy a watch (on my wrist this very sec in fact).

wow... i've quite forgotten d list and seein them made me feel like wishes do cme true.

SPM results

my dad told me tht i did well.
and he gt me a new watch.





O.O

tht's when i finally felt d impact o my SPM results.

cuz when i gt my results i've felt tht it wasnt very valuable,
it's only SPM (O-lvls) and it's so much easier than SUEC.
so i didnt think too much o it.

but after my cousins and aunts, even my grandma,
made a big fuss out o my results (we had cake to celebrate yesterday),
and nw this unexpected present fr my dad...

i suddenly realised, mayb i did nt bad for my SPM.

lol~ wht a relief XP

Saturday, March 14, 2009

one o my primary emo these days

"lonely, i am so lonely, so very lonely~~"
rem d song? d crazy frog one.
well, im nt as lonely as tht la,
but...

lately i kept feelin left out,
all thru my high sch life, i did nt join in many class activities,
cuz i stay in d hostel,
cuz my parents are strict,
cuz i used to put d volleyball team first,
or juz cuz im too quiet...

i used to think tht was ok,
nt joinin in stuff like goin to d canteen together,
smsing each other d nite before d exams,
singin karaoke after every exam,
goin to friends' hses for parties or a sleepover,
goin around petalin street after sch...

but nw i felt tht,
if i didnt do tht, i dont belong in d crowd.

of course, i had a diff kinda fun,
midnite b'day parties,
eatin 3 meals a day together,
stayin up late w d whole hostel durin exams,
plannin hostel activities etc,
but noone seems to care bout those.

if i had chosen a diff life,
would i have a better sense o belongin w my classmates?

but i had chosen this lifestyle,
and though one can choose a diff path at life's crossroads, one does nt make a U-turn.

juz so lonely....

tht hurts...

i lost all d msges in my phone.






my gosh, i do miss them.

fr qing on my 16th b'day, d complete lyrics o "lao po"

fr yying on d same day, d complete lyrics o "is your b'day happy?"

fr panda, again on tht day, as well as last yr, b'day wishes fr far-away china

fr tim, msges tht could always make me smile, w/o fail

fr sunflower, a gdbye msg when she resigned as our hostel warden

fr 学长, msges tht make me stop sniffin

fr my 姐姐, "of course i love you too"

fr my friends, all d fowarded msges tht are less meaningful than d friendship tht prompted them to send d msges

d gdnite or gd luck msges

and many many more......


i knew tht d msges themselves werent important,
but i needed them to remind me tht i was...
tht i was important enough for ppl to send me msges tht could make me laugh, smile or cry...

sry, mom, for yellin at you for deletin my inbox...
but you juz couldnt imagine hw much those msges mean to me.


i knw you ppl might say, wht's d big deal if you've practically gt those msges memorised?
yeah, it's nt a big deal... for an 18-yr-old.
well mayb i dont wnna b mature yet.




thx wern, for callin.
noone could ease d pain, but you did share it.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

last interclass game

like to use this blog to upload pics... cuz it's way faster than d msn space (on my comp la)!
so... my last volleyball match representin my class in KC...
lets look at some pics tht say wht i feel much better than words...

this yr finally realized d importance o this part o d game...
d "sr3sc jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!" part...
all these hands show tht we care... and tht we are ONE CLASS.

thx so much to them for playin... felt so glad to hav them for my teammates!
for yellin, cryin (a lil la), fallin down, rollin all over d ground (ok, mayb tht's a lil exaggerated), and nvr stop fightin~~

i nearly had to kick her out before she would let herself b substituted (d girl in bsktbll shoes)...
this is so like my team!
every yr and for nearly every game i had to shout and scream at them to stay in one piece,
nt in terms o stayin sane but in terms o body parts!
haha~ they nvr manage to gt thru a game safely!
nearly gav me a heart attack when these ppl, who has gt a badly sprained hand, a couple o strained shoulders and more than a dozen bruises and cuts between them,
try to run into each other and hav a closer relationshp w d ground all thru d game...

i'd miss these conferences...
thx lots for respectin me and nvr laughin at me for all my "wise talk"!
my last game as captain...
i'd nvr forget d sense o belongin and love o bein a TEAM...

even d referee couldnt stop herself fr gettin dwn fr her post to say, "good luck!"
accordin to her, noone could deny tht our class is d best team, tht is, best in team spirit~

this is d sr3sc volleyball team09...
we lost 3 games out of 6 this yr, nt really our best effort, but wht we won was more than a title...
it was friendship, a love for d game, joy and laughter (think o all d embarassin scenes like an air-ball) and much, much more.

"sr3sc, 你是我的Hero, sr3sc, 我们一起加油~"
of course, d credit also goes to all tht hav taken part in d interclass games (as players or cheerleaders) all thru these yrs...
my most sincere thx to you guys!!

interclass games, a shining part o my high sch life.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

juz keepin ppl updated

gettin a lil pressured bout my blog... haha~
it's nt official yet and ppl re bookmarkin/linkin it!
in fact im nt ready to leav my spaces blog yet... too many memories!
so... keep an on tht innocent-vlb-nerd blog too, k?
bloggin on both...

anyway...
this week was... tui fei!!
i didnt get anythin done at all...
2 days i was at hostel meetin, 1 day i went to AV room to watch mamma mia (hostel), another 2 days i was kinda day-dreamin...

hmm.... bout this thng on my mind...
(was goin to post in chi but cant gt my chi star to start, so...)

tyy asked me tht day, wht do i want for my bday present?
she said tht it was hard to choose for me cuz i had everything...
which i think was unfair (for her to say)!!
i DO NOT hav everythin!!
im juz satisfied w wht i hav...
i mean, if you want my wish list you cn hav it,
cecelia ahern's bks (xcept ps i love you and thx for d mem, which i already hav),
twilight series,
cn you keep a secret (by sophie smethng i thnk),
yoyo-ma and friends CD,
a jacket,
a watch (wearin my bro's)
and many many more....
tht's a lot tht i want!

but im juz nt used to askin...
i would rather gt smethng i may nt need but cmes fr my friends' heart!

though there is one thng ive nvr gotten before and i would really like...
you knw when a classmate has a bday and ppl get a card for her and everyone writes in it?
ive nvr really gotten a card (any card) w everyone's wishes on it...
cn i hav one this bday??
i sorta wnna knw tht ppl like me enough to write a card...

sigh~~
forgiv me for even thnkin like tht...
d surprise bday cake on my sweet sixteenth bday party,
d countdwn at d hostel for my seventeenth,
d bday song on d last day o SPM (my 17th bday),
my baomu's prezzie+letter,
and d outin+celebration (twilight day) etc...
tht's really sweet o everyone...
should b happy w tht...
and I AM!
it's juz tht...=.=

well... other than tht... still gt lots o other stuff on my mind but all nt worth bloggin bout...
cuz i only gt 1.5 hrs to go online... per week!!
gtta blog here, my space, visit everyone's blog, cont my research on unis, write my resume><...
me mom's crazy><
lol!! juz jokin... she has her reasons... [doesnt mean i agree >=( ]

so... signin off for nw~~
let's see if i cn upload any nice pics...

missin sr2sca, baomu da ren, iris jie jie, ying2, jerk, panda, crystal & joe, and my mp3 & pillow (forgot to bring hmeT.T)...
haha~
seriously signin off~~

Saturday, February 14, 2009

haiz

i was in such a temper today.

after struggling like crazy over d karangan (even borrowin a copy to refer to-- which i absolutely dislike doin), i was still late and noone deigned to take it to d teacher for me.

after stayin up half d night and lookin like a lunatic for lookin at 3 txtbks at once, still i did nt stand up to d standards o my friend.

and i was so angry... esp cuz i CANT get mad at ANYONE...
my essay was late so i SHOULD hand it in myself.
i really wasnt as clever as my friend, and anyway she didnt exactly tell me tht she was lookin dwn on me... it was juz d aura i felt radiatin fr her.

hence, all i could do was to crawl into a lil corner to feel sorry for myself and say a lil prayer...
Lord, grant me d strength to be myself, and deal with all d stress and troubles i m facin with a calm and peaceful heart.
Also, pls forgive me for gettin angry at my friends when i was at fault.

it wasnt one of my better days, girls, sorry for bein so grouchy today...
i didnt hav time to do my hw last night (hostel meetin),
so i burnt sme midnight oil to do them (=not enough sleep),
and d workload was juz too overwhelmin for me...

much better nw after a refreshin afternoon at volleyball pract W/O d coach...
haha~ exercise does make ppl feel better,
so does CHOCOLATE (fr valentines day in sch-- haha~ all fr girls as friends la)...

anyway signin off,
happy valentines, y'all~~

Sunday, February 8, 2009

since im only free once in a blue moon...
thought i'd write a lil more.
or rather... upload sme photos??
haha~ a pic's worth a thousand words...
but im nt usin my comp at d mo so cant post d latest pics, these re stuff i gt fr my other blog or friendster...
juz take it as reminicin la...

Loves of my life~~
the volleyball team
sr2sca2008

my pandas
KC prefectorial board















cool game =)

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
cong jin yi hou (tank)

2.How would you describe yourself?
bei ji xing de yan lei (nic teo)

3.What do you like in a guy?
dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shei

4.How do you feel today?
teng ni de ze ren

5.What is your life's purpose?
my heart will go on (celine dion)

6.What is your motto?
ai ke yi wen shei (li ke qin)

7. What do your friends think of you?
truly madly deeply (savage garden)

8.What do you think of your parents?
fei ni mo shu (lin yi chen)

9.What do you think about very often?
fu huo (lin yv zhong)

10.What is 2 + 2?
track 01 (06 chi RNB)

11.What do you think of your best friend?
mei li xin shi jie

12.What do you think of the person you like?
jian2 dan2

13.What is your life story?
picture of you (boyzone)

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
jian dan ai

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
baby2 (JJ)

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
xie2 ai (hana kimi audio)

17.What will they play at your funeral?
cheng li de yue guang (tank)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
you ni duo hao (cai chun jia)

19.What is your biggest fear?
open your eyes (amei)

20.What is your biggest secret?
dream of titanic (amei)

21.What do you think of your friends
zi you (nv zi shi er yue fang)

22.What will you post this as?
zhi zai hu ni (nic teo)

intro

it's me again~~
finally ready to do sme serious bloggin...
seein tht sme1 found out bout this blog already><

like i said in my last post,
this blog is created cuz i need a change...
so let's look at smethng bout me...
reintroducin sarah...

現在幾點: 2:56pm
你的全名:sarah magdalene chong ying ying (as shown on my confirmation cert)
你現在正在聽誰的歌: guo jing (xia yi ge tian liang)
你在哪裡讀書(工作): KC girls' high
你最後吃的一樣東西是什麼: dimsum
現在天氣如何: HOT
戴隱形眼鏡嗎: nope
上一次生日蛋糕上蠟燭的數目: 16 (sweet sixteenth~~)
你通常吹熄這些蠟燭的日期: 27/11
星座: sagitarious
兄弟姊妹跟他們的年紀: bro calvin (13), sis emma (8)
耳洞: none yet
有刺青嗎: NO!!
喜歡你目前的生活嗎: hangin on...
目前居住地: weekends PJ, weekdays KC hostel
喝過酒嗎: does shandy count?? haha~ yes but dont like wine/beer.
覺得自己花心嗎: not at all...
暗戀過人嗎: erm... erm... *blush*
喜歡吃啥麼東西: durian, nasi lemak, mom's salad, pizza, pudding, CHOCOLATE, any kind o dessert except jelly... and A LOT MORE... hehe~
喜歡喝什麼: sweet stuff (but no air sirap O.O who drinks tht anyway?!?)
最喜歡的顏色: white!
喜歡的數字: 4, 8
最懷念的日子: any happy days
最傷心的日子: nvr thnk bout them
喜歡的花: roses, lavender
最怕遇到的人: ppl i dislike on first sight><
喜歡的運動: volleyball!
喜歡的冰淇淋種纇: chocolate + choc chips...
最怕什麼東西: mosquitoes, hseflies, ants
討厭做的事: hang clothes
討厭別人做什麼: erm... ignore me maybe...
擅長的事: you tell me.
無聊的時候你大多做些什麼: sleep, sms, read, cross-stitch, play piano
目前有男友嗎: nope
沒把握的事情態度如何: might b slower or smethin... but i'd do it anyway^^
如果有人誤會你,你會: try to explain
如果有人誤會你,又不聽你的解釋: hav a good cry
有想過要怎麼對付你討厭的人嗎: not at all
你認為你的另一半幫你付錢是理所當然的嗎: NO!!
現在心裡最想念的人是誰: panda, ying, sr2sca
今天心情好嗎: not too bad
現在幾點了: 3:17pm

Saturday, January 31, 2009

finally startin

ok... sane enough to start my new blog (this one la)...
haha~ let's see...

reason for creation:
i need a change

time of creation:
now lo (31-1-2009, 7:38pm)

resolutions for blog:
only the truth
forever innocent
a God's princess in every day of my life

k... enough solemness...
time for............. DINNER!
=.=
meanin i hav to leav again.
great

Thursday, January 29, 2009

juz droppin a line

at peter's hse now...
haha~ juz droppin a line so tht my blog cn stay alive...
i forgot my password juz nw=.=...

btw... it's CNY now!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

wht did i do wrong

got into an 'arguement' with my dad again juz now... juz becuz i tied d wrong hairstyle for sis!
hey! i didnt knw tht she was going for ballet class ok?!?
and guess wht he scolded me for!
"all you think about is the computer!!"
great!
you got me!
all i think of is d comp becuz it's something worth thinkin bout!
it doesn talk back,
it's interestin,
it lets me say whtever i want......

Friday, January 2, 2009

first

d first impression's really imp right?
but unfortunately im not in a mood to leav a good impression...

all i wnna do is CRY

in a really down kind of mood now.

it's d middle of d night n i cant sleep cuz of d down-ness.
how bad can tht b?

i created this blog juz so tht i can CRY
or pretend to

coming back when im sane.