one o my primary emo these days

"lonely, i am so lonely, so very lonely~~"
rem d song? d crazy frog one.
well, im nt as lonely as tht la,
but...

lately i kept feelin left out,
all thru my high sch life, i did nt join in many class activities,
cuz i stay in d hostel,
cuz my parents are strict,
cuz i used to put d volleyball team first,
or juz cuz im too quiet...

i used to think tht was ok,
nt joinin in stuff like goin to d canteen together,
smsing each other d nite before d exams,
singin karaoke after every exam,
goin to friends' hses for parties or a sleepover,
goin around petalin street after sch...

but nw i felt tht,
if i didnt do tht, i dont belong in d crowd.

of course, i had a diff kinda fun,
midnite b'day parties,
eatin 3 meals a day together,
stayin up late w d whole hostel durin exams,
plannin hostel activities etc,
but noone seems to care bout those.

if i had chosen a diff life,
would i have a better sense o belongin w my classmates?

but i had chosen this lifestyle,
and though one can choose a diff path at life's crossroads, one does nt make a U-turn.

juz so lonely....