i miss my violin.




like seriously.




why though?




d last time i picked him up was during MAY.














great.

i have an undang test to study for and i want my violin.




我还记得我们的约定，一辈子幸福的约定~

我也爱你~
sarah magdalene.

i cant take this

pls dont read if you have nvr heard me mention d secret code "panda".

i really cant take this.
how can he do this to me?!
remember wht i said abt him not talking to me for one whole yr becuz o "buzy w studies"?
i added him on my msn list again last week, cuz i thought,
juz catching a mention o how he was doing is enough for me.
he msn-ed me juz now, as well as answering an email i sent him a mth ago.

now im shaking w anger.
how can he act as if nothing has happened between us?
ok, maybe nothing has happened. we didnt fight or anything.
but we havent been talking for almost a year!
and he acts as if d last time we talked was last week.

i dont know why im so angry...
he probably doesnt know tht im mad at him...
but i juz cant stand it.

it was as if all d mths o being angry at myself (& at him),
getting upset cuz he didnt reply to my smses,
telling myself tht he's super buzy, when he doesnt do d things he usually does w me (ie chat, read blog etc),
didnt happen.

as if he didnt cause me to feel sad everytime i think abt him this yr.

feeling so APOLOGIZE now. (think justin timberlake)














but wht i dont understand is, why i can accept jerk's apology...
jerk didnt EVER replied to my smses and letters...

was it only cuz jerk didnt act as if he didnt do all tht?
or becuz he apologized?










or becuz im juz a person w double standards?





















i missed panda.
lots.











but suddenly i wished he didnt come back to my life.



















i dont know him anymore.

trip to rome

graduated and killing time before i go off for holiday in an exotic place non other than...
ROME.
yo ITALY~~
hehe.

so here i am, trying not to "waste my online time" (as my dad calls facebook and blogs) by doing some research on rome.
cuz if i dont, my dad'll probably get us lost...
no sense to ask for directions and all=p

ok, let's look at d top list o "must see"s:

1. the Roman Colosseum-- gladiators and wild beasts! at least in d old days. seats 50,000. one o d world's NEW 7 wonders.
2. Palatine and the Roman Forum-- remember SEJARAH form4, ppl? this is d place where DEMOCRACY was born!
3. Vatican and the Sistine Chapel-- vatican->pope->smallest country in d world->centre o catholic church. hmm ya, and d sistine chapel contains Michaelangelo's work, only one o which is signed by him. (check out d story by following d last link listed bellow)
   
4. Trevi Fountain-- besides being an architectual marvel, it is also, in short, a WISHING WELL. haha. same "throw coin in granted return visit" story. then again, dad says that a fountain cannot differentiate between an euro coin and a m'sian coin so could we pls bring some 20 sen coins to throw.
5. the Catacombs-- used by d early christians in d days o prosecution by romans... they are close to 2000 YRS old. seriously cool.

besides this top5, there's also attractions like
the Pantheon, Park of the Monsters, Baths of Caracalla, Vatican Museums, Museum of Sanitary Arts (this is positively weird), Aqua store (yes it sells ntg but water), poste vaticane (vatican post office) etc.

recommended websites: strange (but true, i hope), serious, interesting, only if you'r into ancient churches.
follow d links if you like a description.

then there's also d FOOD.
*going wide-eyed and starts to drip over d keyboard*
my aunt specifically asked us to try italian ICE-CREAM.
not pasta, it's d ice-creams tht's worth d plane tickets.
according to her, it comes in a few stacked scoops and tastes like heaven.
probably costs like hell though><.
haha~

k gtg for now.
will update w real photos when i get back.
hope i wont get too fat.

ciao~~

NS

stup stup stup khidmat negara...
of all times to send me a letter...
it has to come a few days before i leave d country,
and at a time when its official site crashed.
urgh.

anyone else got a letter?

still debating whether or not to extend it... again.
on one hand, it'd b quite a cool experience.
on d other hand, wht if coincided w my studies? would i b able to extend it then?
again, let me ponder d stupidity o having d official "khidmet negara" site crashed...
and a "for further enquiries, pls call" number THT IS FOREVER BUSY!!!

FINISHED EXAMS

I'VE FINISHED MY SUEC

wow.

im still in a state o shock actually.

am i really and truly done w it?

still feel d urge to pick up my txtbks to revise.




but still...

d hours spent walking arnd sg wang

and d hours spent surfing d net

and d hours going to be spent doing cross-stitch...


feels real enough.

guess im really done w UEC.





HOORAY!!

sayonara for nw

only one post for october?!?
wow... im really behind schedule.
but then again, im nt supposed to be online now anyway.
i've gt my finals in exactly 2 weeks!!
and it's d biggest exam in all o my 18 yrs, no less.
heh.

going back to d hostel in another 2 more hrs after my tuition...
to STUDY!!

no more procrastinating.

gd luck to all having their exams,
elizabeth soo, anak2 indos in my sch, PMR (this week),
all my jrs in sch, JUEC (in 2 weeks),
all sr3's i knw, SUEC (ditto),
jeffrey lim (cousin) and mye and gang, SPM (a mth away),
wern and other college a-lvls ppl (nov).

pls offer prayers for all students taking exams soon!

ps wishes to 'hav a nice trip' to those going for cousin william's 'zhu ce' in singapore nxt week!

middle o afternoon

pract piano

record clip

do chores

pract piano

record clip

do chores

convert clip

bang on comp

edit clip

lose audio

comp hang

mp3 hang

CAMERA pun boleh hang






WHT THE?!?!?!









*frustrated-ing*