nt giving up yet

d organist o my choir juz emailed me.
she asked if im still available to play for church.






am i?
lately i had to force myself to remember tht i cant hav everythng in life,
tht ive gtta learn作出生命中的取舍.

yying is right, if it's too hard then do smethng tht is easier.
if i dont hav d ability then i shouldnt take on too much.





yeah, mayb.
but i still cant giv up anythng.

but stop lookin at me w d superior expression when i dont succeed in managing my time.
i CAN do it, juz wait and see.

easter

havent had time to blog for sme time so decided to borrow 1 hr (fr d mountain o hw) to finish d delayed blogs.

outin w girls... done
speech com... done
exam results... it's a sunday! nt gnna write bout it
my week... besides it bein hectic (my day started at 6am and ended at 11pm, w 10 min break for my shower and no time at all for hw), it's ntg. was busy organisin d hostel "ti neng xun lian ying".
sr3 stuff... too lazy to

so it leaves me w...
EASTER!!!
i really, really love easter...
remember when we were in d jr sect, teachers always like to use "my fav holiday" as an essay topic?
ppl write abt CNY or b'days or d mid-autmn festival,
but my absolute favs re easter and christmas^^!
(cant decide betw them cuz easter is great but nt everyone o my relatives cn make it back to celebrate w us, unlike christmas)

went to d easter virgil mass last night,
6.45 till 8.15pm!!
yep, d usual 2.5 hr thng.
it was a lil diff for me this yr, cuz for d 1st time in 3 yrs im nt doin anythng except participatin in mass.
in 07 i was in charge o d projector (projects prayers and lyrics for d whole church),
last yr i was playin piano accompaniment (and freezin my XXX off right under d AC),
this yr... i was juz a normal parishioner.

but even though i wasnt in charge o anythng,
easter's still a special thng for me.
it's juz really upliftin and i cme away serene and confident...

every yr i gt a new experience at this mass,
once i understood d meanin o easter,
once i understood baptism,
once i understood d phrase "praising d Lord w music",
and last yr i made a new friend.

remember totoro?
i met him at d easter mass.
our first link was d freezin temp in church...
haha~ ntg gts two talkin like chattering teeth and numb hands!

goin to my grandma's soon,
food, chat, more food, family...
tht's one o d "plus" o easter!

gtg nw, to all my friends in Christ,
Happy Easter!
may God bless you and d spirit o Easter be with you always~
fr Magda (Magdalene- my confirmation name! in church my name'll nw b sarah magdalene chong=p)

speech com

impossible to believ, but there i was takin part in d english elocution competition for d sr category.
and even more impossible to believ, i gt into d finals w a topic o "using icebergs as a source o water"O.O...
i mean, i dont even Like tht topic...
i juz didnt hav time to look for one... so i took d one my teacher offered me.

so this week, which is d most hectic week ive ever had, i managed to split myself into 3 on thurs and went for d speech com (it collided w d hostel photographin sess as well as vlb pract).
it was quite an experience!

i was late so i didnt hav time to really PANIC, but d "adrenaline to stimulate pumpin o heart to prov brain w O2" thng happened...
my 4 min speech took me more or less 2.75 min to finish.
haha~ i was nervous!

then i listened to d others,
couldnt stand one o d sr1 girls! (i knw im lousy, but...)
no posture no ethic at all!! who makes a speech slouchin and readin fr a piece o paper!

so anyway...
everyone did ok, and i silently resolved to work on my accent...
i dont hav one! T.T...

congrats to hansol for gettin 1st in d preliminary round,
and also my sympathies to tammy...

tammy, you did very well!
serious~ your pronunciation was really wonderful!
you sounded like a french speakin eng... haha~ lovely foreign accent, i LOVED it!
dont berate yourself for forgettin your lines, everyone does.
nxt time, dont b so serious over it and hav fun, k?
juz like we had fun in our interclass games^^.

after exam gala

i did mention tht i was goin out w d girls, right?
well here are d pics i 'curi' fr dudu's blog...
d stars o d day.... wawa, dudu, and yoongying!! and me...... i guess.
it was fun...
so this is wht they always do when they go out...i knw i dont sing... juz hang on to d mike... but hey, listenin is an art!
d beautiful and talented singers... wawa, yying, dudu~
takin pic w Fahrenheit... haha~ yying (d wu zhun fanatic) is standin nxt to her idol^^
before leavin d k room...
then we had food and went shoppin (my mom's orders)... i gt new shoes! heels 3 inches highO.O
d highlights o a high sch girl... prom!! which isnt until... erm.. november??
haha~ sry tht i cant hav fun fittin d dresses w you tht day cuz o sme reason><
can anyone believ tht i wasnt happy tht day? nt possible, right?

saturday mornin

im havin a dreadful time...
looking for advertisements for my yrbook.
ANYONE INTERESTED?!?!?!

i've been callin ppl for d past hr and i've nt gt past stating my intentions.
sigh~ hw do ppl do it?

goin crazy soonT.T

waiting

再次锁掉我的panda部落格...
真的很失望，难过得直想掉泪...

"石沉大海没关系，毫无音讯没关系，
对谁都一样，我不介意。"
我真的说了这样的话？
(innocent-vlb-nerd的blog)

好，说的一定算数，
但代价是自己累...

有多少心在冷 有多少泪在忍
有多少梦已幻灭再从头
不愿放弃爱的心 没有别的路可走
只有不认输的人 没有别的梦可以选择
经历太多泪的夜 没有别的爱可守
失落和希望 一起等候
（不肯放弃爱的心，姜育恒）

我怕失望，但我还是会等。

继续等，继续期待，继续爱...

home on weekday^^

this is to all d ppl i luv...
你好吗
李玖哲/周笔畅

温柔的时间,抚平我们的亏欠
过几天,过几年,伤会好一点。
多久没见面,孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前,笑的那么甜。

chorus
baby,我想起你,你有了他
是否依然为了爱,变的很傻
我想起你,你有一个他
好久都,没说的话,你好吗?

温柔的缠绵,我也放下了依恋
过几天,过几年,伤会好一点。
我收着照片,安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下,唯一的关联

chorus

问候是我对你,好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗?

我想起你,你有了他,
是否依然为了爱,变的很傻
我想起你,你有一个他
好久都没说的话,你好吗?
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missin d days o sweet 16th,
friends, class, volleyball, music, etc...
it's nt like i dont hav them nw, it juz feels diff.

juz finished my exams and seriously,
they SUCK!!!
it was a total disaster.
confirmed as d WORST exam EVER...
and tht includes my basketball exams.
so you can imagine hw bad it was.

anyway im goin out w yying and d girls tmr...
so gtta sleep early (lol as if=p).

blog again smetime soon, im hme for a long weekend^^~~
cant help feelin happy cuz o qing ming... im bad i knw><