i miss my violin.




like seriously.




why though?




d last time i picked him up was during MAY.














great.

i have an undang test to study for and i want my violin.




我还记得我们的约定，一辈子幸福的约定~

我也爱你~
sarah magdalene.

i cant take this

pls dont read if you have nvr heard me mention d secret code "panda".

i really cant take this.
how can he do this to me?!
remember wht i said abt him not talking to me for one whole yr becuz o "buzy w studies"?
i added him on my msn list again last week, cuz i thought,
juz catching a mention o how he was doing is enough for me.
he msn-ed me juz now, as well as answering an email i sent him a mth ago.

now im shaking w anger.
how can he act as if nothing has happened between us?
ok, maybe nothing has happened. we didnt fight or anything.
but we havent been talking for almost a year!
and he acts as if d last time we talked was last week.

i dont know why im so angry...
he probably doesnt know tht im mad at him...
but i juz cant stand it.

it was as if all d mths o being angry at myself (& at him),
getting upset cuz he didnt reply to my smses,
telling myself tht he's super buzy, when he doesnt do d things he usually does w me (ie chat, read blog etc),
didnt happen.

as if he didnt cause me to feel sad everytime i think abt him this yr.

feeling so APOLOGIZE now. (think justin timberlake)














but wht i dont understand is, why i can accept jerk's apology...
jerk didnt EVER replied to my smses and letters...

was it only cuz jerk didnt act as if he didnt do all tht?
or becuz he apologized?










or becuz im juz a person w double standards?





















i missed panda.
lots.











but suddenly i wished he didnt come back to my life.



















i dont know him anymore.